Where are you going? Where have you been?

I spend a lot of time feeling old...ridiculous since I'm only 22, but it is very easy to feel old before your time here lol. I find I think to much about the times I used to have before my best friends both got married, before Trevor happened. I act as if my best years were behind me for some strange reason. I find I've been becoming something of a hermit preferring to stay in my apt and study rather than socialize...the ease and comfortableness I feel at not having plans for the weekend or being asked out on a date in the longest time ....well it kind of scares me. I must stay outgoing and social! I remember a talk by Elder Holland that he gave at a BYU Devotional about Lot's wife. He admonishes us to not look back on past days thinking that the future can't be as happy and bright. We deny ourselves of happiness because the times are only so good as you believe or make them to be! So I am putting away the computer and going to go talk to someone, by gummit!