It's August---the month of marriages out here at BYU-I, just not mine. My two best friends both got married in the month of August. Caiti will be celebrating her 2 year anniversary on Sunday (08-08-08), and Candi's 1 year anniversary was on the first (08-01-09 (8+1=9 ...I thought it was cute)). They both joked that I would be getting married THIS August, but obviously that won't happen. Then I got to thinking about past Augusts--my romances always seem to revolve around summer days. In '07 I was dating my first boyfriend, also my childhood friend Courtney was getting married that month--on the way home from Courtney's bridal shower, my mom smiled and said "Next year is could be you!"--but things ended between Evan and I.
If things had gone my way in life I would have had 3 August weddings and 1 April one. But looking back from where I type, I am eternally grateful that things didn't got according to my hopes and dreams. I don't even envy my married friends anymore, because when I honestly think about I wouldn't want it any other way. I'm so grateful for the experiences I have had and the opportunities I've had to grow up and get to know who I am before I get married and have children. In less than a year I'll be applying to grad schools, which I am so excited for. I used to be so scared of the thought of graduating college unmarried, but I have to be honest and admit that I hope that I DO graduate single. I know that everything in my life has been a gift and I look forward to getting an MA and a PhD. I know I'll get married some day to an amazing young man and that the timing will be perfect then, but now the timing is perfect to prepare and not worry about it. I know that my education and training will add so much to role as a wife and mother and that my husband and children will be sooooo grateful for the sacrifices I made and the things I've accomplished.
Oh I wonder...
Friday, August 6, 2010
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