I'm taking the road less travelled

It's August---the month of marriages out here at BYU-I, just not mine. My two best friends both got married in the month of August. Caiti will be celebrating her 2 year anniversary on Sunday (08-08-08), and Candi's 1 year anniversary was on the first (08-01-09 (8+1=9 ...I thought it was cute)). They both joked that I would be getting married THIS August, but obviously that won't happen. Then I got to thinking about past Augusts--my romances always seem to revolve around summer days. In '07 I was dating my first boyfriend, also my childhood friend Courtney was getting married that month--on the way home from Courtney's bridal shower, my mom smiled and said "Next year is could be you!"--but things ended between Evan and I.

If things had gone my way in life I would have had 3 August weddings and 1 April one. But looking back from where I type, I am eternally grateful that things didn't got according to my hopes and dreams. I don't even envy my married friends anymore, because when I honestly think about I wouldn't want it any other way. I'm so grateful for the experiences I have had and the opportunities I've had to grow up and get to know who I am before I get married and have children. In less than a year I'll be applying to grad schools, which I am so excited for. I used to be so scared of the thought of graduating college unmarried, but I have to be honest and admit that I hope that I DO graduate single. I know that everything in my life has been a gift and I look forward to getting an MA and a PhD. I know I'll get married some day to an amazing young man and that the timing will be perfect then, but now the timing is perfect to prepare and not worry about it. I know that my education and training will add so much to role as a wife and mother and that my husband and children will be sooooo grateful for the sacrifices I made and the things I've accomplished.

Oh I wonder...

Day 18 6-25-10

So love is out...like pollen covering BYU-Idaho's campus. Since everyone is so romantically inclined, this photo reminds me of one of Lord Byron's poems (who was just as hooked on romance and fickle with love as so many of these single students are)...the fact that they're sleeping and no more "a-roving" warms the cockles of my corny, pun-loving heart.

So we'll go no more a-roving
So late into the night,
Though the heart still be as loving,
And the moon still be as bright.

For the sword outwears its sheath,
And the soul outwears the breast,
And the heart must pause to breathe,
And love itself have rest.

Though the night was made for loving,
And the day returns too soon,
Yet we'll go no more a-roving
By the light of the moon

Oh I wonder...

Day 17 6-16-10

Upon Julia's Clothes

Whenas in silks my Julia goes
Then, then, methinks, how sweetly flows
The liquefaction of her clothes.

Next, when I cast mine eyes and see
That brave vibration each way free,

Oh, how that glittering taketh me!

-Robert Herrick (1591-1674) 

 

Oh I  wonder...

Day 16

I visit taught this girl last year, I think only once. I couldn't exactly remember her name so I didn't call out to get her attention. I've always been eager to give, but so often I don't.

Oh I wonder...

Day 15 Do not go gently into that good night/ Rage, rage against the dying of the light

Pandy found out today before she came to model for my portraiture project that her grandmother has cancer. There are so many things that have brought her down this semester.

Oh I wonder...

Day 13 Though I see through the glass darkly...

My roommate Caro has been having some troubles in her life lately. I've heard what's going on between her and her friend, they don't understand each other.

Oh I wonder...

Day 11

We won are Softball game 7-6. In the last inning we were down by four with two outs, but we came back to win it in the end!!

Oh I wonder...

I'm so sorry Bradley!!

Yesterday I left Bradley at the photo lab for about 2 hours. I got home from Institute and he wasn't in my bag--imagine my worries. If he wasn't in my bag, the only alternative was that he had some how been taken from my bag--IE: stolen. However he was in the lab, and as an apology I took a picture just of him...I'm sorry Bradley , please forgive me :(

Oh I wonder...

Today I Woke Up Worried About A Photo Assignment

Most of my day went to this one assignment I did not look forward to. I spent hours working on it, but in the end I was dissatisfied with it and decided to start fresh with a whole new approach. Try 2 went much better, and I really enjoyed working on it--it's going to turn out well. There's a pattern to everything in life, even though it seems foreign ...best stated by Dylan Thomas "out of confusion, as the way is, and the wonder that man knows out of the chaos will come bliss, that then is loveliness" ...I love that poem.

Oh I wonder...

I had to...

Today for FHE we played Battle of the Sexes. We had various events doing gender specific activities with boys vs girls :tie-a-tie relay, nail polish race, shaving balloons, and that egg in a spoon race only the guy had to wear heels we bought at the DI and the girl had to wear the guys shoes. We lost that game, but the ladies won overall :).

Oh I wonder...